I still don't have it.

Things are changing now, more than ever I think, and I'm feeling off balance. I'm managing to cope better than I used to, and despite a few setbacks I can safely say that I'm slowly improving. As much as everyone else I'm looking forward to the release summer should bring.

I changed the template because I got sick of the gaping space between the title and content of my entries. Hopefully I'll be able to come up with a new one during the break.

Two days ago I got hit by a car for the first time. I was crossing a supposedly one-way street and I was looking in the proper direction, so I didn't see it coming. Thankfully the driver hit the brakes quickly enough, leaving me annoyed and weirded out but in one piece. Incidentally, I was in the mall earlier today when out of nowhere my left hip started aching, and it didn't occur to me until some time later than it may have been a consequence of getting hit in that spot by that stupid car's bumper two days before.

I still don't have the only thing I really want right now, and there's no guarantee that it will ever come. But then there's this change, this ferment inside of me that right now only leaves me lost and confused. Rather than resist it, I might as well welcome whatever it is that's in store for me.

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first. Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes. And I know that waiting is all you can do sometimes.
- from Strange and Beautiful (I'll Put a Spell on You) by Aqualung